I Was Not Called to be a Shopkeeper
John Gable, Pastor of Tabernacle Presbyterian Church here in Indianapolis, and I are becoming friends. Yes, pastors of different denominations can actually get along and become friends. We're living proof. The other day I was sharing with him my struggles of trying to lead at a higher level without losing my soul. What I mean is that Christians in general, and pastors in particular, can get so caught up in serving Jesus that we forget to be with Jesus. John listened very pastorally to my grousing and griping, and then he handed me a book and asked if I'd read it. The book is Working the Angles by Eugene Peterson.
I'd heard of the book before but had never read it. At first glance, I thought this was not the right book for me, because I didn't want to work any angles anymore. It's partially from the angles of different preferences and sub-groups within church life that I have gotten discombobulated.
But these aren't the angles Peterson writes about. In true trinitarian language, Peterson describes three angles that provide trajectories for spiritual health and "soul care." Without these three angles embedded in the life of a pastor, we can succumb too easily to the temptations of our age for success and the momentary applause of people.
Unfortunately, as I travel among groups of pastors, I experience all too readily the reality of what Peterson describes. What's even more frightening is that I find this tendency in my own heart as well. Peterson writes, "[Pastors] talk of images and statistics. They drop names. They discuss influence and status. Matters of God and the soul and Scripture are not grist for their mills. The pastors of America have metamorphosed into a company of shopkeepers, and the shops they keep are churches. They are preoccupied with shopkeeper's concerns--how to keep the customers happy, how to lure customers away from competitors down the street, how to package the goods so that the customers will lay out more money. Some of them are very good shopkeepers. They attract a lot of customers, pull in great sums of money, and develop splendid reputations. Yet it is still shopkeeping; religious shopkeeping, to be sure, but shopkeeping all the same."
I was not called to be a shopkeeper. I was called to be a pastor. A shopkeeper's responsibility is to maintain the shop and help it increase its profitability. A pastor's responsibility is to keep the community attentive to God. And how does a pastor do that? By working the angles of praying, reading Scripture, and giving spiritual direction. The primary job description of a pastor is to pray--"an act in which I bring myself to attention before God"; to absorb Scripture--"an act of attending to God in His speech and action across two millennia in Israel and Christ; and to provide spiritual direction--"an act of giving attention to what God is doing in the person who happens to be before me at any given moment."
If you're a "church person," and many of you reading this are, you might agree that there are far too many "CEO-Pastors" and not enough "Shepherd-Pastors." And while there is much blame to lay at the feet of us pastors, there are also great crowds of people who, intentionally or not, have joined the conspiracy to eliminate prayer, Scripture and spiritual direction from their pastor's life. They would not see it that way, but the evidence proves the case. They want their pastor and church to have a certain image and standing. They assess pastoral value based on impressive attendance charts and successful church-building programs. They do their best to fill the pastor's schedule with meetings and appointments that leave them little time for solitude and stillness before God, to ponder Scripture, and to be unhurried with another person.
Hi. I'm Rick Grover, and I'm a mega-church pastor. I have the same temptations as any other pastor and any other Christian for that matter. How do I lead others to become like Jesus? By first of all leading myself to become like Jesus. I can't lead others where I'm not willing to go. Together, we must be people of prayer, the Word, and spiritual direction. We all need one another. If you're trying to fly solo in your Christian life, I'm convinced that at some point you will crash and burn. As Peterson puts it, "The biblical fact is that there are no successful churches. There are, instead, communities of sinners, gathered before God week after week in town and villages all over the world. The Holy Spirit gathers them and does His work in them. In these communities of sinners, one of the sinners is called pastor and given a designated responsibility in the community." And that responsibility, above all else, is to keep the community attentive to God.